It’s been a few months, a few adjustments and pill changes later and I have to say, I am glad I took this step. Slowly but surely I am claiming my life back.
First it started unnoticeable to me, but Hass told me I am less irritable and emotional. Then I started entertaining the thought again to go out and photograph, or to go diving.
Next was an actual trip to craft stores and a visit to a late night art class. At this point I was already elated! Im still uncomfortable and pushing my boundaries a lot. But luckily friends and family tell me that it’s nearly unnoticeable.
And the week before my birthday I spontaneously signed up for a weeks sailing class, with strangers and even more boundaries to push and I was nervous when I was at home. I didn’t want to go, but as soon as I was in the marina, I was happy to be there. I was not craving for home like so many other appointments I had to keep in the past 9 months. I even felt confidence at the end of the course, that I could take out that boat and sail away. And I might have made some new friends along the way.
But to answer the Headline. Yes. I am still a little loopy. But Im not sure right now that it’s my baseline loopy or something I still need to work on. Loopy isn’t all bad 😛